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Breast Fetishes, Trust, Faux Rape

I’ve felt cursed by my breasts all my adult life. They got really big really fast, they made me feel terribly self-conscious in high school.

I got groped by old men I trusted.

And they made my back hurt.

They’re just breasts. Evolved to feed babies I never will have.

(Daily Kos crosspost)


Not all guys are obsessed with breasts. And not all women are obsessed with having large breasts and promoting them.

Breasts are about babies. Some cultures don’t even insist that women keep their breasts covered. It’s not a hot sexual issue for everyone.

I think one could make a strong argument that the breast fetish is related to men feeling powerless. That isn’t necessarily about women being mean. I’d say it was more about the world seeming to be increasingly out of control, and men feeling like they were supposed to keep all of that from happening, what with being the men and all.

My breasts are no great shakes. They sag down to my belly button. I buy nicely made brassieres from Decent Exposures up in Seattle, but they are not designed to make my tits point at anyone.

When I was younger, they made my back hurt a lot. I learned to work to beef up my shoulder muscles, and that helps a lot.

But still, they imbalance me. I can fall more easily because of them.

I see them as a fail, something that cripples me. It’s hard for me to deal with men seeing them as any kind of sexual plus.

I don’t have a problem with men being interested in my breasts, any more than I have a problem with their being interested in any part of my body.

But the breast fetish can get weird with some guys. No, I am not the mommy, sorry.

With guys, it’s about the penis; how big is the penis, how long, how thick.

But your penis will never help you to fall down and hurt yourself when you become slightly imbalanced. Your penis will never mess up your center of gravity.

Having about ten pounds of breast on one side of your upper torso can do that.


When I was a teenager, my first reaction to these breasts getting so large, was to try to hide them. I dressed in loose clothing. I can’t really remember how I felt about them. All I can remember is how I reacted, to try to hide them.

I worked to hide them. I assumed that it had worked.

Well, it didn’t. Guys were interested in my breasts in high school. I was working on having friends I could talk to about politics and listen to and play music with, and take acid and stuff. Y’know, like that.

It never occurred to me that anybody would be interested in my breasts. I really didn’t want anybody to be interested in my breasts.

I was more of a gardener. I was into growing pot. I was very good at it. That went over well.

Eventually, they got me, one summer night. School was just over. A dark room with crossbars was available. The mom was a bad drunk. The son was part of the gang. He didn’t set it up. He was just available. He and his clubhouse. We were all doing a fair piece of acid.

I thought they were my friends.

They got me in there and pulled the most ugly mocked up faux rape shit I could ever imagine. They let me out when I said yes.

They let the dumb guy insist on turning on the lights and taking me home (Love you always, Ashley! You knew what was right, even though you probably wound up cannon fodder)

No, I wasn’t deflowered then. That came later, in college, when I was 17, with some yahoo in a van who picked me up in the college bar, back when I still was so trusting.

But, you know? They haven’t killed my trust yet, all of those people. I’m still open.

That amazes me. I keep thinking I’m done with trust, but I’m not.

I’m not.

Seriously, I didn’t think I had it in me.



The current weather forecast has us down to nine degrees Tuesday night, four degrees Wednesday night, and nine degrees Thursday night.

I haven’t ever seen it get below ten or fifteen here, over the last 13 years.

I’m sure this is related.

Scenario: Low pressure will develop in north-central Texas and tap into a huge resource of moisture from the Gulf of Mexico. As the storm pushes into the Midwest, moisture will be captured and transported northward into the Front Range of the Rockies, Plains and Midwest where it will meet up with a fresh arctic air mass.

Albuquerque predicted lows for the same days are 10, 6, and 17. That’s not fair.


Yet Another Wild & Wooly New Mexican

Weapons instructor is arrested for DWI

Las Cruces Sun News

Michael Gonzales Jr., 43, is the owner of Security Concepts, which provides security for the public schools, the city and, until recently, New Mexico State University.

A deputy pulled over Gonzales’ 2008 Jeep at 11:05 p.m. Jan. 21 near Mesilla on West University Avenue when he noticed the driver had his brights on and hadn’t turned them off when flashed by another motorist, according to a Do a Ana Sheriff’s Office report. The deputy reported a “fairly pronounced” odor of alcohol, even over Gonzales’ gum, but Gonzales initially denied drinking, the report said.

“I’m coming from the Las Cruces Convention Center,” he told the deputy, according to the report. “I’m on my way to go check on my guys; I am the owner of Las Cruces Security Concepts and I am en route to go see if they are all on their posts.”

Mr. Gonzales refused a breathalyzer test and failed other mechanical tests for sobriety.

Upon searching Mr. Gonzales’ Jeep, the deputies found three weapons: a Phoenix Arms long rifle, a Charter Arms .38 Special, and a Kel-Tec 9 mm Luger. The rifle wasn’t loaded. The .38 was. The 9 was loaded and had a round in the chamber.

Mr Gonzales and his father were busted for racketeering in 1999. The charges were dropped after “a seven year ordeal” because “so many witnesses were no longer available.”

Well, I’m just glad we have standards here.


Anonymous Gets Raided

FBI Raids Pro-Wikileaks Hackers

SF Chron, today

The FBI conducted 40 raids yesterday and seized computers from members of the loosely organized group of hackers called Anonymous, and several members have posted their stories in online forums.

The FBI was collecting evidence in the group’s denial of service attacks against MasterCard, Visa, PayPal, and Amazon. The group attacked the sites in retaliation for their actions against WikiLeaks, which released classified US diplomatic cables in December.

But Anonymous suspects a political motive in the raid. As the group pointed out in a press release after UK officials arrested five members there, similar denial of service attacks were carried out against WikiLeaks itself, but “nobody has been arrested in connection with these attacks, nor are there even any signs of an investigation into this issue at all.”

With real guns!

Also, warrant and broken door.

I’m shocked, I tell you.


Paperboy Recollections

a href=”http://www.pntonline.com/news/newspaper-24100-former-carriers.html”>Former newspaper carriers share recollections

Portales News-Tribune


Good piece with a variety of stories from a variety of contributors. Next maybe they could do slide rules, 8-tracks, the possibilities are endless!

(excerpt from one story:)

“My brother (Garrett Nelson of Muleshoe) and I were both newspaper carriers at the same time and we derived a fair amount of enjoyment from some of the complaints we received. At times, the News Journal would send us little “notices of complaint” bundled with the day’s papers. Of course, things like missing a delivery we took seriously, but some of them were over the top.

“Once, in the “remarks” section, read this little nugget: ‘UPSET WITH CARRIER. SAYS CARRIER THREW TISSUE PAPER ALL OVER YARD’ To this day, I have no idea what the customer was talking about. I would love to take credit, but they got the wrong guy.

“Another interesting complaint: ‘DOES WHEELIES IN YARD. WILL QUIT IF SERVICE DOESN’T IMPROVE.’ Now, I could understand what was going on had I ridden my bike on the route, but how a 1989 Chevy 2500 pickup does ‘wheelies in yard,’ I will never know.


Bank Fails

Fairly detailed article about the failure and takeover of the First Community Bank in Taos.

Regulators close First Community Bank


The bank first opened in Taos County in 1922 becoming First State Bancorporation in 1988 and First Community Bank in 1995. The bank is the third largest in the state by market share and employs 520 people, according to a fact sheet on its website.

First Community has 35 branches in New Mexico and three in Arizona.

The FDIC closed three other banks on Friday: FirsTier Bank, Louisville, Colo., $781.5 million in assets, First State Bank. Camargo, Okla., $43.5 million in assets; and Evergreen State Bank, Stoughton, Wis., $246.5 million in assets. The FDIC has now closed 11 banks this year after shuttering 157 in 2010 as the economy continued to sputter and more mortgage loans soured.

The FDIC estimates that the cost to the Deposit Insurance Fund (DIF) will be $260.0 million. Compared to other alternatives, U.S. Bank, National Association’s acquisition was the least costly resolution for the FDIC’s DIF. First Community Bank is the eleventh FDIC-insured institution to fail in the nation this year, and the first in New Mexico. The last FDIC-insured institution closed in the state was High Desert State Bank, Albuquerque, on June 25, 2010.


Now Where Did I Leave That Trebuchet?

Smugglers with “medieval catapult” nabbed at U.S. border


The Mexican military seized 45 pounds of marijuana, a sports utility vehicle and a metal-framed catapult just south of the Arizona border near the small town of Naco last Friday, following a tip-off from the U.S. Border Patrol.

Surveillance video taken by National Guard troops deployed to support the Border Patrol caught a group of men apparently attempting to pull down a metal beam and load or test the catapult, which was powered by powerful elastic and mounted on a trailer close to the metal border fence.

“It looks like a medieval catapult that was used back in the day,” Tucson sector Border Patrol spokesman David Jimarez told Reuters.

Does Dave Barry know about this?


Drug Testing – Not Just For The Employed, Anymore

Or it won’t be if the New Mexico State Senate President Pro Tem has his way.

NM lawmaker proposes drug tests for jobless benefits

Las Cruces Sun-News, today

SANTA FE – With state budgets squeezed and more people seeking public assistance because of the sour economy, lawmakers are considering a new requirement to qualify for governmental aid: Saying no to drugs.

In New Mexico, a Democratic legislative leader wants to require people to pass a drug test to qualify for unemployment benefits. A measure cleared the Missouri House on Wednesday for drug testing of welfare applicants if the state suspects that they are using illegal drugs. No state currently requires drug testing to receive public assistance, but at least 16 states have proposed legislation for that, according to the National Conference of State Legislatures.

In New Mexico, Senate President Pro Tem Tim Jennings said drug testing is “tough love” for people who could get a job if they weren’t drug users. Some employers require random drug tests for their workers.

“Those people who choose to be unemployed for using drugs are just robbing from those people who are legitimately unemployed,” said Jennings, a conservative Democrat from Roswell.

I’ve seen these meme a lot down here in the local paper Forum. There are jobs out there, y’all are just too lazy to work.

I’d suggest the conservative Democrat from Roswell go have a chat with some of those folks up in Michigan, for example. I don’t know the job situation in Roswell, but there are surely areas in this country where people simply cannot get hired to do anything at all. The work just isn’t there, especially if you’re over forty.

It’s reasonable to ask that people make an effort to find employment if they are able bodied and don’t have dependents, and wish to apply for federal aid. But insisting they be tested for drugs is just more judging people guilty until proven innocent. Considering the federal government’s general failure to create any kind of work other than in the military, it is hard to see how the unemployment situation should be laid at the door of drug users. If they start getting away with this one, next it will be food stamps.

Meanwhile, I suppose the unemployed can next look forward to proposals to install backscatter machines in the doorways of the unemployment office, and being charged a mandatory fee to have the photos electronically attached to their resumes.


But I don’t even really believe all of this.

I believe people are entitled to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. And what we’re moving more and more towards is the wealthy getting all of that, without having to work, or submit to drug tests either. I doubt they get backscattered or groped in order to be able to board their private planes. Hell, they probably even don’t have to hang around in airline terminals and get blown up by the terminally disgruntled.

Everybody else? STFU and get in line. If you weren’t so lazy, you’d be rich and get to do drugs and not have to work or be blown up, and fly around in private planes, too.

oh, wait…..


More Ways To Handle Impending Financial Pressure

Woman stored husband in freezer until her death, investigators learn

This breaking (!) story so far is about how a woman living south of town (Carlsbad, New Mexico) recently died, in her 60’s, after telling somebody she had her husband in her freezer, which apparently was in her bedroom. She was not believed at the time, as she was in grave condition.

Cleaners then later found a body in the freezer, which they at first thought was some sort of animal (some other sort of animal presumably).

The husband mysteriously disappeared in 1997, and was ill at the time, and in his 70’s.

The more recently deceased left a note saying she was sorry about this, but she couldn’t make it without his retirement income.

If that guy died of natural causes, this is so incredibly sad, as well as extremely weird. In the bedroom? (with the freezer.)

What else was in the freezer? Was it locked? Didn’t anybody think this was a little strange?


Bill To Reinstate Death Penalty In New Mexico Introduced

Not wasting any time, are they?

Bill to reinstate New Mexico death penalty introduced (1 p.m.)

SANTA FE – Rep. Dennis Kintigh today introduced a bill to reinstate the death penalty in New Mexico.

Kintigh, R-Roswell, proposes to put the issue in the public’s hands through a ballot initiative.

The death penalty was outlawed in New Mexico in 2009.

More here

Republican Gov. Susana Martinez, who was a career prosecutor, last week said she wanted to reinstate the death penalty for the worst crimes.

Kintigh, 58, a retired FBI agent, said he hoped fellow legislators would allow voters to decide the question of whether New Mexico should impose capital punishment.

If his proposal were sent to the ballot by legislator, it would be in the 2012 general election.

I wonder what they think the worst crimes are. I would not be at all surprised if they included killing police officers.